Day 50

The last few days everything I see has reminded me of Robert, everywhere I go. I went by the mall today and stopped in to see Suzanne. It's hard being in the store. It's comforting, and sad at the same time. It's quiet, empty (but not actually). East is this weekend and while it's never been a major holiday for us, I know what we would be doing if he were still here, so I will feel his absence all the more that day, I suspect. A couple of days ago I went to the Buddhist temple for meditation. The people were so kind, and the talk afterwards was both enriching and comforting. I could feel Robert's presence in that environment. The topics of the talk were things we'd discussed many times. Explained differently, the concepts suddenly made so much sense... They've offered to do a ceremony for him this Sunday, which I'm taking them up on, because the way it was explained, made it seem so fitting for him.