Day 196

Today I made plans for my husband's second memorial service. Some of his ashes are being buried with his parents in the family cemetery. It feels like  weight has been lifted to finally have this scheduled, although i felt, literally, like I was going to vomit when I had to make the phone calls. There's just nothing easy about this process, even 6 months down the road. Both his birthday and mine are also approaching, so that's something that is hanging over my head. I know exactly what he would get me if he were here. And what he would get himself too. That new iPhone they just announced? He'd be all over it. I'm not certain if he'd go for the 6 or the 6 plus, but he'd be getting one of them for sure. I wish I could hear his comments. I wish I could discuss a million things with him, actually...