I feel like things have become somewhat calm, which is ridiculous really. i have so much to do i couldn't even begin to make a list. i think i'm on a halfway decent mix of meds now, and am starting to be able to think again, which is a positive change. my widow group has a less frequent meeting schedule through the summer, which is unfortunate. i tried to attend a general grief workshop and found it far less helpful than the support group. The symptoms of grief? I don't need you to list them. I'm living them. It's been 5 months since I lost Robert. It seems impossible that that much time has passed. At the same time, I think I am starting to re-acclimate to this solitary life. I don't like it, but it's becoming routine. I still think of him like he's here. I see something and for that split second, think how I need to tell him / show him / text him. I walked into the bedroom last night and I swear I could smell him. Oh, what I wouldn't give to smell him again...
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