in need...

i'm in need of a vacation. how many times have i said that in the last 6 weeks? i miss my mom so terribly... i'm due to get on a plane to see her in 2 weeks... but due to other things currently enveloping my life, i can't count on that with 100% certainty... i need a break from everything... tomorrow is the weekend but instead of a restful night of sleep and some sleeping in i'll have electrodes stuck to my head and be woken up by 6... i need to spend a good 6 hours underwater... then i think i might just feel relaxed enough to face another day... everything is getting to me...