Day 387

Its Saturday, and I'm certain this must be the longest day in the week of any widow. I got up this morning and did little of any use (worked on but didn't complete my creative writing homework). Then I took a nap for several hours before getting up and having dinner, and working more on the aforementioned homework. Now it's 8 and I'm ready to wrap things up and head home to watch tv and drift off to sleep in a medicated haze. tomorrow will likely be just as bad. it's not that i have nothing to do. i have tons to do. i just dont have the will to do any of it. i still owe people thank you cards for gifts they sent a year ago. all i do is eat and sleep and work. it's a stupid cycle that makes my will to live even weaker.