I'm sitting at the bookstore, waiting for the car place to call. My
car's being cleaned inside and out better than I could ever do it so
that tomorrow when I go to the dealership, they'll hopefully find it
'good as new'. In a few days my car will be traded in so that my mom can
get a new car. She doesn't know. It'll be her xmas gift... and as
excited as I am about her surprise, when I think about the idea of
giving a gift on christmas, with my brother not there, I cry. Birthdays,
easters, thanksgivings, I've missed them all at one time or another...
but none of us, not my mom or dad, me or my brother, none of us ever
missed a xmas together. Until last year. And the only way we made it
through was by going away and pretending it wasn't xmas... I'm over the
moon about her surprise and terrified of what it will feel like to
ackowledge xmas...
The incredibly true adventures of a travel loving kid at heart who just became both an MBA and a recent widow. Navigating widowhood is the hardest thing I've ever done. Come along for the bumps in the journey.
11.19.2006
Just another sunday
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member when we attempted to go to the emf and carter the unstopable sex machine concert?
it was you me and nick.. maybe jamie??
and nick drove us in his sation wagon..
and you and i were rolling aroung in the very back!!
and then..
nick went the wrong way down a one way street.. i think it was congress looking back at it..
and we almost ran head on into a car that we were convinced was emf..
that's a great memory huh?!?
love you..
xoxo
would it make you feel better raph & me & b bought you another clearance christmas blanket :)
I think that's really sweet, what you're doing for your mom. But... what will you drive?
I second what autumn said.. there's nothing like a bag full of clearance target stuff and a reeeeeaaaalllyyyy expensive thing of hot chocolate for Chrismahaunaquanzaka.
I think it's going to take many holidays before it will seem just ok to have Christmas without Nick. With all your friends by your side, Raphie, we will make it as easy as we can to get through it. Just lean on us.
You have the greatest bunch of friends so take B's sage advice and lean on them...
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