6.13.2006

having a rough time for no good reason

i'm travelling a slightly bumpier road than normal for the last few days... maybe it's time to switch up my meds... found myself falling into a couple of my OCD habits over the weekend and then today was all sorts of irrational (ok, not just today)... i have this reactions to mild inconveniences that are just way above and beyond anything that could be deemed appropriate for the situations... and i hate that i[ve become so aware of my mood changes... there was a time when i just felt like crap all the time and that's how it was... but now when i feel like crap and can't get my mind to stop racing, the thoughts going through it are "what the hell is wrong, i'm on my medication, did i miss my medication, did i get a bum batch of pills, did i forget to take them on time, why am i doing x,y,z" and so on. it's so beyond annoying... like take how annoying this post is and multiply it by a hundred.

1 comment:

Ten Thirty One said...

we definately need a girls night